Lonelyness

Why do I always feel the way I do? I haven't written on here in months, and I don't know why. I guess it's because I never feel like writing helps me. I have never liked writing, especially when it's journaling...I have never been one to keep a diary or anything of the sort.

I have had so much on my mind lately that I feel I'm going crazy talking to myself so much. I am worried about so many things, and stressed about life in general. I feel so far away from God right now, and I don't know how to get back close to Him...I see those around me and how close they seem to be to Him, and I feel like I don't compare. I have always wanted to feel that closeness, and I have at times, yet most of the time I feel far away...

My baby sister is soon to be born. This alone is adding to my worry daily. I worry about my Mom and how she is dealing with everything. I worry about the life that this little girl is going to lead. I know that I need to put my faith in God about all of these things, but I don't know how...

I feel alone.