I don't know why I started a blog...

I have never had the interest in writing a blog, up until now. I have had one of the hardest terms ever this term. I haven't been struggling with school, or with work. I have been struggling more with my friendships. I feel as if sometimes I don't have any friends at all. I spend a lot of time at home by myself, and most of the time I am lonely. There are times when I really enjoy having the house to myself, but when I come home and expect my roomate to be home and she's not, I get pretty irritated. I shouldn't expect her to be there anymore I guess. She is always gone, no matter that she was gone the whole weekend... I find myself getting angry at her for not ever spending time with me! I feel rediculous...why am I so worried about her not being there? Is it because I am used to having someone to talk to at all times? Last year I lived with three amazing girls, and they were always home! All of us were always there, and we spent alot of time together. I really enjoyed having my friends there and available to hang out with. Now I live with just one person, and I don't like it very much. I love my roomate, but I am bored all the time, because she is never home. I don't really know where I am going with this...but I guess I just needed to get it off my chest again...I hope this will get resolved soon. ugh!